If I could go back in time to 5 years ago, I would tell myself to not be afraid to move to Oregon. I would also tell myself to prepare for a roller coaster of life changing events, most of which will be very difficult, but that I would end up back in Utah where the love of my life had been waiting for me the whole time.
Just last month Dan and I were on our way to the Color Festival in Spanish Fork with my best friend Stacey. As Stacey and I were reminiscing on our last Color Festival trip just 5 years prior, Dan realized that he was at that very same one. We had been in the exact same place at the exact same time without ever meeting. Who knew that 5 years later we would be in love and attending the very same event. We were both at completely different places in our lives and needed go through some extremely difficult life changing events before we would be ready to meet at fall in love.
A few days prior to this moment I heard the song 5 Years Time by Noah and the Whale. I kept feeling like this song had significant meaning but couldn’t quite figure it out. It wasn’t until this moment in time that some of the song lyrics returned to my mind:
Oh well, in five years time we could be walking round a zoo
With the sun shining down over me and you
And there’ll be love in the bodies of the elephants too
And I’ll put my hand over your eyes but you’ll peek through
Five years ago, about this time I had just been presented an opportunity to move and work in Oregon. I remember attending the Color Festival with Stacey and my sister Tori, while the decision of whether or not to move to Oregon had been weighing on my mind. Something told me that I needed to go, never knowing that it would take 5 whole years for everything to come full circle and make complete sense.
On April 12th, with the help of Stacey and Tori, Dan lead to me the Delicate Arch in Moab and asked me to marry him. It was so easy to say yes. I’ve been engaged before and never felt the peace of mind that I feel with Dan. I never knew that it could be so easy to say yes and not second guess my answer.
The next verse of this song never had more meaning to me than it did in this moment:
Oh well, I look at you and say it’s the happiest that I’ve ever been
And I’ll say I no longer feel I have to be James Dean
And she’d say, yeah well, I feel pretty a happy too
And I’m always pretty happy when I’m just kicking back with you
And it’ll be love, love, love all through our bodies
And love, love, love all through our minds
And it’ll be love, love, love all over her face
And love, love, love all over mine
I’ve just been thinking about how much can change in five years and how life is full of surprises. Sometimes you just need to trust your intuition even if it takes years for everything to come full circle to reveal all of the answers to your millions of questions.
As difficult as life can be, it can also be so much greater than you could ever imagine it to be. If you can hang on to hope through the dark times, I promise that life will be greater than what you hope for. Just as Jonah and the Whale say, in five years time it might just prove you wrong.