I bet you all thought that I’d given up on my blog. I apologize for taking such a long hiatus, but I am back and more inspired and motivated than ever! Those who know me know that 2017 was one hell of a year for me. I had my heart broken, lost my job, and took a leap of faith and came back to Oregon with nothing guaranteed. Yet somehow things have worked out. I don’t regret anything that I’ve been through, I believe that everything happens for a reason and I believe that I am exactly where I need to be.
That being said, I felt inspired to write about forgiveness and letting go of the past. I was listening to my weekly Spotify playlist the other day and India Arie’s cover of Don Henley’s The Heart of the Matter came on and really spoke to me. I thought about everything that I’ve been through in the past year. All of the heartache, all of the disappointments, and all of the uncertainty. I thought about all of the moments in the past year where I felt, lonely, sad, angry and just very whoa is me. Sometimes life just sucks and you feel like you have no control. However, I realized that I don’t HAVE to feel that way and that I may not have control over everything that happens in my life, I DO have control over myself, how I react, and what I accept.
The part of the song that really spoke to me was:
There are people in your life
Who’ve come and gone
They let you down
You know they hurt your pride
You better put it all behind you baby
‘Cause life goes on
You keep carryin’ that anger
It’ll eat you up inside baby
I’ve been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
It’s important to be able to let go and forgive when you’ve been wronged or when life just simply doesn’t go your way. In my experience, it only made things harder and I felt even more lonely and disappointed. Forgiveness doesn’t mean allowing someone an opportunity to hurt you again or even allowing them back in your life. It just means accepting what is, allowing yourself to learn from your experiences, and allowing yourself to be loved the way that you deserve to be.
Don’t deny your bad feelings, but at the same time, don’t let them consume you. Having the strength and motivation to forgive people and life circumstances provides you so much more power and freedom. Take control of your life and don’t allow anyone or anything to break you down or allow you to feel like you don’t deserve to be happy and to feel loved.
If there is anything that I have learned in the past year it’s that people only have as much power over you as what you allow them to have. Once again, I believe that everything happens for a reason and I am a much stronger person for it. I only allow what is good and uplifting for me, I don’t expend energy on people who don’t value me, and I surround myself with people and things that inspire me to be a happier, healthier, and stronger person. I got down to the heart of the matter and realized that it is all about forgiveness.